Hole #7

"France"

This hole was inspired by your trip to Dijon, France. WOW...what can I say? To be away from my best friend and love of my life for four months was the hardest thing I've ever done! This was an amazing time for us...my love for you did nothing but grow stronger, I also matured and grew a lot closer to God! I am so proud of everything that you went through while you were 26 fingers away...you amazed me every single day, you really did! You made it through some pretty hard times and I know you grew a lot, both as a person and in your faith too. You are such an inspiration!

Hole #6

"St Cloud"

This hole was inspired by our amazing trip to St. Cloud. This was a time filled with every emotion out there. We were scared, we were happy, we were sad, we laughed, we cried, we prayed, we played...and it was all so great because we did it together. We were filled with so much love for each other! It was such an intimate weekend and I think the perfect way to say "goodbye".

Hole #5

"Faith in God"

This hole was inspired by our faith in God. Since day one we have chosen to put God in the center of our relationship and we owe everything to Him. We have made some pretty special sacrifices for Him and for each other that we could not make without His help. Being able to share God's love with one another is the most amazing thing in the world! Praying wtih you every night before we go to bed, going to church with you, and just talking about God is amazing. Since we have met I have become so close to God..and I cannot tahnk you enough for that.

Stay tuned for tomorrow's hole...called "St. Cloud"!

Thoughts on a sunday evening

If we hadn't had the miscarriage, I would be entering my third trimester this week. We would have spent much of our anniversary celebration talking about our baby that would be here in just a couple months-- how excited we are to see what our baby looks like and learn of its gender, how scared we are that we will totally mess it up, how magical it will be to be on this new adventure together. On our anniversary on Thursday we instead may talk about how we wonder with pain and hope when we will become pregnant again, how scared we will be of another miscarrage, and what God's plan in all of this really is. There is NO ONE that I'd rather go through this with than Josh. He is so amazing and I feel abundantly blessed to live life alongside him. On another blog I found the following paragraph, which I think is eloquently and honestly written:

After a miscarriage, you grieve for a person you never knew, and for a relationship that ended before it really began. You grieve not for a person who has lived and died but for an unlived life. You grieve for the loss of your future as the parent of the baby who has died. You are sad not just because of what you have lost but because of what will never be.

Thank you for your continued prayers and support.

Hole #4

"The First I Love You"

This hole was inspired by the first time I said, "I love you". How could I ever forget? I was supposed to be heading back to school but I just had to "wish your dad a happy birthday" before I left. I walked downstairs only to see my little princess was still sleeping...you were beautiful as ever. I sat down beside you and chatted for a bit, then I said what was in my heart..."I LOVE YOU". It felt so great and when I left I felt so amazing because you said I love you back to me... I don't know how I made it back to Winona that day, I was pretty high on life!

The winner of this hole received a hug.

Hole #3

"The First Kiss"

This hole was inspired by our first kiss. Oh how I remember it well... I smiled the whole way home and while I slept and the whole next day! Ok, yeah so it took me long enough... I was a wuss, what else can I say. We were chatting outside your house by my car after a great night of sitting on your comfy couch, watching the tube and talking. You said something about me not kissing you and.... BAM! I kissed you mid-sentence... I'll never forget that, totally priceless! From that night on I'd never kiss another woman again.

Awww! So sweet! Although... it makes me think... he said from that night on... what, did he kiss another woman that morning???

The winner of that hole got a kiss on the cheek.

Hole #2

This hole is titled "I Gotta See About A Girl"

This hole was inspired by the time I had "to see about a girl". I had finally got enough courage to ask you to hang out and I got your phone number. I remember that so well... I was so nervous that I was shaking in my backward black Titlest hat. Finally we made plans to golf together... but I had already made plans with Brooks and the guys, so I called them and told them that I had "to see about a girl". From there it has all been a dream!

The winner of hole #2 got a pound dog.