Wednesday, June 30, 2010

A lesson on judgment

The Woodcutter’s Wisdom

by Max Lucado

Once there was an old man who lived in a tiny village. Although poor, he was envied by all, for he owned a beautiful white horse. Even the king coveted his treasure. A horse like this had never been seen before—such was its splendor, its majesty, its strength.

People offered fabulous prices for the steed, but the old man always refused. “This horse is not a horse to me,” he would tell them. “It is a person. How could you sell a person? He is a friend, not a possession. How could you sell a friend?” The man was poor and the temptation was great. But he never sold the horse.

One morning he found that the horse was not in the stable. All the village came to see him. “You old fool,” they scoffed, “we told you that someone would steal your horse. We warned you that you would be robbed. You are so poor. How could you ever hope to protect such a valuable animal? It would have been better to have sold him. You could have gotten whatever price you wanted. No amount would have been too high. Now the horse is gone, and you’ve been cursed with misfortune.”

The old man responded, “Don’t speak too quickly. Say only that the horse is not in the stable. That is all we know; the rest is judgment. If I’ve been cursed or not, how can you know? How can you judge?”

The people contested, “Don’t make us out to be fools! We may not be philosophers, but great philosophy is not needed. The simple fact that your horse is gone is a curse.”

The old man spoke again. “All I know is that the stable is empty, and the horse is gone. The rest I don’t know. Whether it be a curse or a blessing, I can’t say. All we can see is a fragment. Who can say what will come next?”

The people of the village laughed. They thought that the man was crazy. They had always thought he was a fool; if he wasn’t, he would have sold the horse and lived off the money. But instead, he was a poor woodcutter, an old man still cutting firewood and dragging it out of the forest and selling it. He lived hand to mouth in the misery of poverty. Now he had proven that he was, indeed, a fool.

After fifteen days, the horse returned. He hadn’t been stolen; he had run away into the forest. Not only had he returned, he had brought a dozen wild horses with him. Once again the village people gathered around the woodcutter and spoke. “Old man, you were right and we were wrong. What we thought was a curse was a blessing. Please forgive us.”

The man responded, “Once again, you go too far. Say only that the horse is back. State only that a dozen horses returned with him, but don’t judge. How do you know if this is a blessing or not? You see only a fragment. Unless you know the whole story, how can you judge? You read only one page of a book. Can you judge the whole book? You read only one word of a phrase. Can you understand the entire phrase?

“Life is so vast, yet you judge all of life with one page or one word. All you have is a fragment! Don’t say that this is a blessing. No one knows. I am content with what I know. I am not perturbed by what I don’t.”

“Maybe the old man is right,” they said to one another. So they said little. But down deep, they knew he was wrong. They knew it was a blessing. Twelve wild horses had returned with one horse. With a little bit of work, the animals could be broken and trained and sold for much money.

The old man had a son, an only son. The young man began to break the wild horses. After a few days, he fell from one of the horses and broke both legs. Once again the villagers gathered around the old man and cast their judgments.

“You were right,” they said. “You proved you were right. The dozen horses were not a blessing. They were a curse. Your only son has broken his legs, and now in your old age you have no one to help you. Now you are poorer than ever.”

The old man spoke again. “You people are obsessed with judging. Don’t go so far. Say only that my son broke his legs. Who knows if it is a blessing or a curse? No one knows. We only have a fragment. Life comes in fragments.”

It so happened that a few weeks later the country engaged in war against a neighboring country. All the young men of the village were required to join the army. Only the son of the old man was excluded, because he was injured. Once again the people gathered around the old man, crying and screaming because their sons had been taken. There was little chance that they would return. The enemy was strong, and the war would be a losing struggle. They would never see their sons again.

“You were right, old man,” they wept. “God knows you were right. This proves it. Your son’s accident was a blessing. His legs may be broken, but at least he is with you. Our sons are gone forever.”

The old man spoke again. “It is impossible to talk with you. You always draw conclusions. No one knows. Say only this: Your sons had to go to war, and mine did not. No one knows if it is a blessing or a curse. No one is wise enough to know. Only God knows.”

The old man was right. We only have a fragment. Life’s mishaps and horrors are only a page out of a grand book. We must be slow about drawing conclusions. We must reserve judgment on life’s storms until we know the whole story.

I don’t know where the woodcutter learned his patience. Perhaps from another woodcutter in Galilee. For it was the Carpenter who said it best:

“Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.” (Mt. 6:34)

He should know. He is the Author of our story. And he has already written the final chapter.

From In the Eye of the Storm

Copyright (Thomas Nelson, 1997) Max Lucado

Monday, June 28, 2010

Claire at 14 months

Claire had a developmenal EXPLOSION this month! So I had to write a mid-month update, which you can check out here.

At 14 months, Claire:


  • does sign language all of a sudden! This is somewhat of a mystery. She does "more" and "eat" and for the most part, uses them in the proper context! We attempted sign language with her when she was much younger (like 6-9 months) but hadn't done much since. Then one day she all of a sudden starts signing! I am so proud. :)
  • gives kisses
  • still has tiny little feet that somehow support her while walking. She still wears size 2! I bet within a month or so she'll expand to a size 3.
  • wears 12 month clothing for the most part
  • still sleeps like a champ. She goes to bed between 6:45-7:15 and wakes up between 6:30-7:30AM. She typically takes 3 naps per day, but occassionally takes 2. I wonder when she'll transition to one long nap? At her 12 month appt, her Pedi was surprised she still took 3 naps and now she's 2 months older and still doing it. Her naps range from about 45 minutes to 1.5 (sometimes 2) hours long.
  • just walks around all day long! She is always going, going, going. She walks from one toy to the next, never stopping! It's exhausting just to watch! Claire would be content just walking around outside all day long. She LOVES to be outside. She shows us her disappointment when we bring her in! She enjoys her water table and long (or short) walks in the wagon.
  • Has a cell phone. I knew they were starting young but I thought she'd at least be preschooler! It's a real, functional Nokia flip phone, given to her from Grandma Annie, of course. I refuse to have another charger in our house and charge it nightly, so once the battery died, so did her ability to take pictures with it. I think she'll survive. She likes to carry it everywhere with her.
  • Eats pretty well. She doesn't like meat though. I shared my concern that she's not getting enough protein with a Nutrionist last week at a Red Hot Mama meeting at Target and she reassured me that she's getting enough protein in her cheese, milk, and yogurt. She isn't at the point yet that she's eating what we eat. Mostly because she doesn't like meat or salad, and often is in bed before we actually get to sit down and eat. But I'm looking forward to the time that I don't need to fix her a separate meal! She eats like a horse and I'm not sure where she puts it! Some of her favorite foods are oatmeal, nutrigrain waffles, yogurt, cheese sticks, macaroni and cheese (with whole grain noodles), whole grain bread, bananas, pears, nectarines, blueberries, strawberries, watermelon, sweet potatoes, milk, nutrigrain bars, cheerios, and peas. I'm so happy she's a good, healthy eater. I just can't imagine putting junk into her body. She's so dependent on us, and it's our job to feed her nutritious foods!
  • has lots of facial expressions. I think she's like me and doesn't even know she's doing them.
  • is still shy and sensitive

She's at a super duper fun age! I can't wait until she's 18 months old on my maternity leave! She's my precious little girl who is the love of my life!

Stream of consciousness

Just going to freely write what's on my mind this morning. I am excited for fall, which is strange because I think this has been the best summer of my adulthood. The primary reason it's the best summer is because of Claire but also because we're doing lots of summer-y things. Such as spending weekends at my mom and Brad's cabin, enjoying our new patio every evenings, having grill outs with friends, and cherishing girlfriend time at the 5th annual girls weekend at Breezy Point. Maybe I'm looking forward to fall because Claire will look so darn cute in adorable fall clothes. Maybe because our new baby boy will be born.

Speaking of him... I bought his nursery bedding this weekend! Yahoo! I received the Pottery Barn Kids catalog a couple weekends ago and immediately fell in love with a bedding collection that was on sale. I was online within hours of receiving the catalog in the mail only to find it was sold out! Well yesterday we stopped at Arbor Lakes mall on the way home from Brainerd and since I wouldn't be able to find anything in Anthropologie that would fit my expanding belly, I slipped away from the girls and checked out PBK. And there it was! The bedding collection, still on sale! I don't know why it seriously never crossed my mind to check out the actual stores. Pregnancy brain I supposed. So I bought all the pieces (minus the comforter, because as a second time mom I know that its pointless)! It will match the already blue room perfectly and it's not baby-ish! Perfect.

I am enjoying a Monday home with Claire. After spending most of the weekend away from her, I couldn't stand the thought of starting another work week (since I only see her for like, 1.5 hours during the week, most of which are spent cooking, feeding, or putting her to bed). We were out the door by 8AM this morning for a much needed oil change (I think the Manager was trying to take advantage of the pregnant woman holding a toddler when he "highly recommended" I get the oil change that costs $79.99. Seriously dude. I may not know jack about cars but I do know I don't need to spend $80 on an oil change. Go look for the next sucker). We also need to return unused cable boxes Mediacom, pick up groceries and diapers at Target, and meet up with Rachael, Sara and their kiddos for a playdate. Should be a very nice day! And tonight Katie and Laura are coming over for a bbq! Sweet! I got a huge lump in my throat this morning when I was thinking about my love for Claire and how I feel more alive when I'm with her. I just.can't.wait until I get TWELVE whole weeks with her on my maternity leave! I've been dreaming about that ever since I went back to work after my leave with her!

Enjoy the day! (p.s. I'm not going to review this post before publishing, so if there are spelling or grammatical errors, my apologies).

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Your second Father's Day






Dearest Josh,

Last Father's Day we still didn't know what the heck we were doing with this little, usually crying, bundle that God had entrusted us with. This Father's Day you have earned your stripes. You are compassionate yet firm when necessary, playful and instructional, sensitive and tender, safety-minded at all times, and most importantly, loving. Not a day goes by that I don't hear you tell Claire she is the most precious/cute/adorable/sweet girl in the whole entire world. Your love for her is evident and she is and will continue to be beyond blessed to grow up in the safety and comfort of your care. Seeing you as her daddy makes me fall in love with you more with each passing day.

You are the best.

Love,
Whitney

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Twins

Our friendship began in Middle School but blossomed in High School. Angela and I were in Marching Band together (go Colorguard! J) and played softball together in the summer for the Rosemount City League. I think it was junior year that we had some dress-up day for Spirit week and I’m actually blanking on some of the details right now, but basically, Angela and I didn’t participate in the theme but just happened to be dressed similarly that day so we said we were dressed as “twins” and ever since, our nickname for each other has been “twin”. We had tons of fun co-captaining the Eastview Colorguard our senior year and winning the Championship (despite the odds against us, seriously we were like David and the team we beat (twice) for the championship was like Goliath) in softball the summer before college.

Angela and I were both registered to attend the University of Saint Thomas for college. We were assigned to different dorms but we were super excited to be at school together. In the 11th hour, Angela changed her mind and decided to attend a small college in Iowa, called Wartburg.

In July 2004, I married a guy named Josh.

Just five months later in December 2004, Angela married a guy named Josh.

Honestly…twins.

This year we’ll both celebrate our 6 year anniversary….. to men named Josh.

In May 2008, she had her spring baby, a boy named Isaiah.

One year later, in April 2009, I had my spring baby.

In November 2009, she had her autumn baby, a girl named Campbell.

One year later, in November 2010, I will have my autumn baby, a boy.

For real….. twins.

We will both have babies that are 18 months apart, our first, a spring baby, and our second, an autumn baby, and we will both have one of each gender!!

It has been so wonderful to travel through life’s experiences with each other… calling each other for support and guidance during the sometimes tough first year of marriage, experiencing our pregnancies, then our joys and challenges with our first baby… and now I’ll be able to rely on her for support and advice on how to manage TWO under TWO!! I am always interested in seeing what happens in her life because it might mean it’s just around the corner for mine. :)

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Claire is Oh! So! Much! Fun!

Claire is so, so, so much fun. I know what parents mean now when they say that every stage becomes their favorite stage! It’s a couple weeks yet until my next monthly update so I wanted to get these down before I forget!!

Claire somehow learned how to “sit”. If you tell her to sit, she'll stop whatever she is doing and plop down on her bottom. It’s so much cuter than I can describe in words! Neither us nor Annie taught her this new ‘trick’ so the best we can come up with is that she learned it from Sydney! We tell Sydney to sit on occasion and I wonder if her little mind picked it up from that! It goes to show how much they absorb without us even knowing it. Maybe it’s a good thing we never taught Sydney to roll over or play dead. :)

Gives high-fives, and even double high-fives when prompted.

Claps

Wipes her hands back and forth like she’s trying to wipe something off of them. She’ll do it when she’s done eating. Again, really cute.

Is bilingual when it comes to her belly button. She’ll lift up her shirt and show you her belly button if you ask her “where’s your belly button?” or “Where’s your pupik?” (which is Czech for belly button).

Can point to her nose when you ask her where it is. This looks very similar however to the next trick.

Blows kisses!

Shakes her head yes and no. She started off with no but we're teaching her to be a yes girl. :)

Saturday, June 12, 2010

Chasing the Kingdom

These thoughts have been stirring in my mind for weeks and I've been meaning to try to put them 'on paper'. It's hard for me to wrap my mind around it, much less type it out, but I'll give it a shot.

I feel that God is stirring my heart. Daily I ponder the meaning of life, the meaning of my life, the purpose of Christians. I get trapped in the mundane-ness of life. Get up, get ready for work, drive to work, work, come home, make dinner, stuff with Claire, watch TV, go to bed, and repeat the next day. It hit me strongly a few weeks ago as I pulled into the Target parking lot on a beautiful Saturday for grocery shopping. I just sat there and thought, there HAS to be more to life than this.....

I have a heart for the poor, the oppressed, the hurting in body, mind, and spirit. How many children choose to travel to Ukraine 3 times before they are 20 years old? I know that my life isn't about me. The last thing I want is to live for myself, although it's far too easy for me to fall into that trap. Realizing that my life is not about me, I used to think that my life was about others. This was my perspective for years. Oh, how us Americans need that daily reminder! My mindset has changed in the last few months, however. I realize now that it's not about others at all. If I believe it's not about me, then truly, why would I think it's about you, necessarily? No, I have come to realize that I think it's about God. Everything on this Earth, and not on this Earth, is about Him. He created it all; He owns it all; it's all His. When I focus my mind, my efforts, my time, talent, and treasure on HIM, then I can start to see through His eyes. And when I have His vision, I see that it is, in fact, about others. But it's about others only because He created everyone in His image and loves us with a passion we cannot begin to understand.

Here is an excerpt from a book I just finished called "The Poor Will Be Glad", which is focused on microfinance:

There are people who literally struggle to survive every day of their lives. The extent of this global poverty is staggering. As of July 2007, there were approximately 6.6 billion people living on earth. Approximately four billion live on less than $4 per day, nearly all of whom live in developing countries. Their incomes are distributed in the following way:
  • One billion live on less than $1 per day.
  • Two billion live on $1 to $2 per day.
  • One billion live on $2 to $4 per day.
The wealthy, and that includes everyone reading this book, lead lives that many of the four billion people living on less than $4 per day consider an unreachable dream.

Ruth Callanta, founder of the Center for Community Transformation in the Phillipines, wondered, "Why do we live in a place that has so much and yet there are so many poor? Are there not enough fish in the sea? Does the earth not have the capacity to provide sufficient food? This cannot be what God has planned for His creation. Something is definitely wrong".

Something certainly IS wrong. But the answer isn't to give up or to ignore the 61% of fellow humans who are struggling to survive every single day. Ignorance may be bliss, but my eyes have been opened, and God will not quit stirring my heart.

Josh and I recently joined the regional board of advisors for HOPE International. HOPE has been a part of my life since I was 16 (my dear friends, the Marty's, whom I visited in Ukraine, were there with HOPE. Also, Josh and I traveled to the Dominican Republic with HOPE two years ago). I had a meeting a few weeks ago with Quenton Marty, a HOPE staff member here in MN, and Tim Hatt, the Kingdom Expansion Pastor for Hosanna! Lutheran church. I was captivated by the conversation between Tim and Quenton and listened for the most part. At the end Tim spoke a prayer that has resonated with me ever since. During part of his prayer, he acknowledged me specifically. He thanked God for me and for my passion for HOPE and the poor. He said, "Whitney is chasing the Kingdom, but she may find that the Kingdom is really chasing her".

Wow. Pastor Tim doesn't know me; he only knows I am involved with HOPE, work at Target, have an MBA, and attend Hosanna. Yet, he hit the nail on the head. This whole time I thought I was chasing God, when really the Kingdom has actually been chasing me. I have reflected on this for so many hours in the past weeks.

I am a good person, I am dedicated to raising my children to know and love the Lord, I give my money and time to God (it's all His anyways, right?), and I pray for others.

Yet, I am so fearful that when I die and stand before God on my judgement day, He will say,

My dear child. You have done well. But I had so much more in store for you. So much more planned for you that you could have done for my Kingdom.

But WHAT is it, Lord? I want to scream YES! I want to go! I want to drop everything, fully surrender to you, live in perfect alignment with Your will for my life! But I am struggling to know what that is!!

We have one life. We are here for a blink of an eye. I cannot ignore that God is continually tapping on my heart, continually opening my eyes to the hurting in the world. I long to live like a stranger in this world. As Christians, this world is not our home. This world is not how God intended us to live. I want to be IN the world, but not OF the world, but oh! how hard is that to accomplish on a daily basis!

So this has been one long run-on mess of the thoughts in my head. I am not a very private person; I pour my heart out on the Internet and with my friends and family. If I appear conflicted, it's because I am. I want to do more and be more. I'm just praying that God reveals to me what that is.